Monday, March 10, 2014

Well look who showed up early...

I was scheduled to have my c section this Wednesday March 12th but The Critter had other plans, I guess.

I went into labor on Friday and my doctor proceeded with the section rather than risk me hitting any of the complications we were worried about initially when we decided on that birth plan to begin with.

So, he's here and we are home safe. Healing and bonding..... the normal stuff. :)

Rowan James 
Born on March 7th 2014 @ 1:32 pm
Weighing 9 lbs 5oz 
Measuring 21 inches long. 

I'll hook you up with a birth story as soon as I catch some zzzz'ss ;P 

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Okay, not the end......

Just one of my many distractions lately....

I have been seriously worried about the fate of this blog lately. I'm about to be a mom to two little boys. Life is busy and hectic and I can't seem to make myself focus on this space anymore. I really want to, don't get me wrong but even when I actually find the time to sit and write..... nothing comes out. Usually because I am so tired I don't even care anymore. I'll have a million ideas for posts running through my head. Sometimes so many that I can barely contain them all. But then I sit down at the laptop or computer and think "It's so quiet right now..... I could be napping".

It's possible this is just a faze. I hope so. But I need to be realistic here too. Time for myself isn't going to be happening for quite awhile. Not to mention, we aren't planning for this to be our last baby either.

I know plenty of moms who seem to blog so effortlessly regardless of having numerous children. I know if I put my mind to it I could too but the thing is...... I'm not sure if I want to.

There, I said it.

At least, not right now. My focus is elsewhere. It's on this family I am creating. I'm not sure if I am doing anything good by chronicling our lives or if I am just taking time away that I could be spending with them.

But when I think about shutting this space down, even temporarily, I get all emotional. I can't let go.

The problem with leaving this place up and just writing when the time presents itself or when the urge arises is that it will always be calling me. Even when I tell myself I don't have to post, I still feel the pressure to do so. Even if I didn't have an audience I think I would feel this way. I'm fairly certain it's this pressure that is making me stark raving mad right now.

The pressure to post is in my head though, obviously. There is no reason why this space can't remain and that I can't just write when I damn well feel the need. Yet....... I feel like I am letting myself down all the time by not posting regularly. This has to be some sort of convoluted OCD thing I am going through. Maybe I should call my damn therapist.

Or maybe if I just rid myself of some other distractions I could get my shit together. Facebook is a fucking time suck for me. It's kind of hard to let that go though because I am also a lonely old hag who is stuck in the house all day with no license and only her kid and dog to talk to.

My poor husband.... I must make him insane.

I'm making myself insane.

Is this hormones again?

For now, I am staying live. Hopefully things will settle the hell down a bit when I can actually fit my belly underneath a damn keyboard. Because, you know, not being able to actually write at a computer could be more than half my freaking problem, right?

Thursday, February 27, 2014

36 Weeks

Posts have been scarce around here because.... well, to be honest..... I can't fit my belly at the computer! It's pretty irritating actually and I don't recall having this problem with Raine. Blogging from my phone just doesn't feel the same although I may need to resort to that because not blogging is making me crazy too.

We do actually know when The Critter will make his debut and damn, is it weird. The time is still up in the air and of course, nothing is set in stone but whoa..... he's going to be here in just a few short weeks.

I should probably finish the nursery, huh?