Friday, November 30, 2012

Friday's Letters

Dear Bladder,
C'mon pal, we can beat this. I know we can. I know you're tired and things just suck right now but it feels like we are almost there so don't give up on me just yet, okay?

Dear Caffeine,
I didn't realize the hold you have over my life until this recent health issue came up. I hate you. I refuse to let anything control me the way you do! If I can quit cigarettes then I can quit you. I'm down to one cup of half caffeinated coffee a day. I will quit you and if I ever indulge in you again it will be on my terms not yours.

Dear Raine,
You have really been a godsend these last few weeks. I am not sure I would have made it through this misery without your cuteness to distract me. And there has been some good to come of all this. Mommy  has been reminded how precious her time with you is and I intend on being even more intentional with my time with you than ever before. I love the heck out of you.

Dear Christmas,
I am not even ready for you. I don't even know what to do. Do I put up the tree and the decorations and have Christmas in the apartment? There is a possibility we can close on the new house before Christmas.... should I wait? I don't want Christmas to feel rushed though so I may just do it here. There is no rush to move till February.... dang decisions!

Dear Apartment,
If that's the case then you're getting decorated this weekend.... as long as this poor body cooperates! Now..... where the lump am I gonna put the tree? *shakeshead* I'm already getting Christmas cards in the mail. I'm so behind this year....

Dear James,
I love the heck out of you too. You know that, right? Thank you for taking care of me these last few weeks. For the late nights wiping my tears and even taking a week off of work to help me out. You're my perfect. :)

Have a great weekend, Home slices!! :D


Thursday, November 29, 2012

Music Man

Things around here have been a little too dark for my liking. Too much doom and gloom. It may be where my mood is at but it's not like that at home 24-7. It's just been a bad couple of weeks but there have been some highlights too! I swear I am not a sad, crazy person..... well, not all the time ;)

Raine has been showing a super increased interest in music. Real music. Not that kiddy bop music or the cutesy cartoon songs. He's really loving what mommy and daddy listen too. "Big people music" if you will.

Since I have been sort of healing the last couple weeks I haven't been able to entertain him as much as he's used too and I didn't want to just plop him down in front of the television till I got well so I put music on for him. This kid will dance and sing for hours!

And this kid can shuffle. I had noticed he was copying some of the dance moves from his cartoon's (he can do some of those Bubble Guppie dances like nobody's business) but I hadn't realized how much he enjoyed shaking that thang. It makes me want to break out the cardboard box and show him some break dancing moves like when I was a kid...... Actually, strike that. I'd probably freaking kill myself if I tried that crap now.

Jimmy has been introducing him to the guitar and the piano and he gets so excited about it. No serious lessons or anything just yet but if he keeps up with this level of interest then Jimmy will get more serious with teaching him. Sometimes when we are listening to music he runs into our room and strums the guitar and "sings" along with the music. It makes me all gushy inside. :D

I made this playlist of the tunes he's super digging right now:

Raine's Favorites by Traci Aerykssen on Grooveshark

I probably shouldn't be letting him listen to some of that just yet but what the hey? He's only two. And obviously he's heavily influenced by his parents but I'll tell you this.... He's vocal about the stuff he doesn't like! He'll scream at me if something comes up in the shuffle he's not feeling.

Like Lady Gaga.... he's not having none of that.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Anxiety Monster

I have been an anxiety ridden mess. Other than being in pain it's a big part of why it's been a ghost town around here. I'm not talking your run of the mill anxious feelings and nervousness either. This is mind blowing, curled up on the floor, uncontrollable shaking/tremors, and mumbling because it takes too much energy to cry anxiety. If I wasn't experiencing it myself I'd think it was exaggerated but alas, I'm suffering.

Jimmy says it started when I had my teeth out last month. He claims that ever since it has been building up and now I'm apparently cracking. I suppose I didn't really notice it. I figured it was normal to be anxious about mouth surgery and the little "attacks" afterwards were always brought on my normal anxiety inducing things. But now with this infection and seeing my reaction to this whole ordeal I am wondering if he is on to something.

But what do I do? I have suffered from anxiety all my life but I do not recall every being so anxious that I would tremble in fear. Seems a bit extreme to me. It's even been suggested that I am keeping myself sick by being so worked up. It's possible that my mind is literally hurting my own body!

So now I am on a mission to find out where this is all coming from. If you have been reading this blog awhile then you know that I am not the type to just sit around and be beaten down even if the person who is doing the beating is me. In fact, in many cases I am my own worst enemy. Therefore, it's time I give myself a proper ass whooping.

But I am kind of at a loss as to where I should begin here. Anxiety isn't like a light switch that I can just shut off nor is it the type of natural anxiety I can even talk myself down from. It appears that it is causeless! Other than this infection, I am lucky to have a pretty calm life going on right now. Even purchasing a new home has been going smooth as butter. There literally doesn't seem to be a cause for these random bouts of panic.

I could go to the doctor but honestly, I know exactly what they are going to say and what they are going to prescribe and I'd rather not go that route unless it's necessary. I would like to handle this personally but I am also well aware of my child's well being. I don't want him to see his mother like this either.

I don't even know where I am going with this post. I guess I just wanted to type it out after weeks of being trapped on the couch and still not feeling fully better. I sometimes wonder if I will ever really recover but it's those thoughts that trigger the anxiety so I stay as far away as possible from thinking like that.

Maybe it is this infection that is doing this to me.

Maybe I need a Xanax.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Instagram lovins

Let me just say, the last two weeks have been so exhausting. Which is funny because all I've done is sit around resting! Trying to fight this infection has been tedious though and my anxiety is through the roof. My test results came back a teensy bit sketchy so now I have to retest next week and I'm currently battling a different infection entirely so I'm just about ready for this nightmare to end and I want to get on with my life. Seems doubtful that will happen anytime soon but it's possible I'm just feeling deflated at the moment.

We got some good news last week though... Looks like everything is good for us to get the house! The bank approved our offer (officially) and everything looks solid for acquiring the mortgage :)

Some of you have asked what I mean by that. Yes we did get pre-approved for a mortgage before we started looking at houses but after working in banking as long as I did I know that anything can happen. I have seen home sales go all the way to closing day only for the bank to suddenly decide the buyers don't qualify for a mortgage loan! Yes, this does happen even after pre approval. So I guess I'm just being cautious. I don't want to tempt fate by saying "we got it!" until those damn keys are in our hands.

With that in mind, our mortgage broker feels that everything is a go and not only do we qualify for the new loan but he thinks he can refinance our current mortgage loan on the two family home we own at a lower rate at the same time.

Ahh anyway, our closing date is sort of up to us. We can close before Christmas or after but it doesn't really matter as we have plenty of time because our renter isn't moving in for right away. I think it would be easier to move after Christmas rather than the week before so it appears that's how we will be spending our New Years.... Moving. But I'm not complaining. I'm sort of a pro at it now. ;) 

1} Raine's hair is beginning to look a little too much like 80's hair metal hair. I'm not sure how I feel about that.
2} I just love them :)
3} Thanksgiving dinner was so good it apparently required two forks and a spoon.
4} ... But the pie was too good to wait for eating utensils.
5} Watching Elmo on the iPhone because our television isn't good enough.

Tomorrow is Jimmy's last vacation day so I may be m.i.a around these parts. I figure I better get off the couch and spend some quality time with the mister.

Happy Monday :)

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Friday, November 23, 2012

Onesies Are Hawt

I may be a little behind but call me crazy, I just can't understand how Channing Tatum won People Magazine's Sexiest Man Alive 2012 over this guy....

I mean, you can't get any hotter than that. Jimmy is a sexy beast, don't you think? Not many people can pull off an adult onesie quite like this guy can.

Just sayin.

Sorry I've been MIA. I was busy having a very relaxing/healing Thanksgiving and I wanted to enjoy that and step away from the computer a little. Plus I am still healing up from the UTI from hell. I think I am finally feeling better from that *knockonwood* but still taking it day by day and praying for the best over here. I'm hoping to be back to my regularly scheduled programming by Monday *fingerscrossed*.


Also, I've been nominated for the Liebster award.... again! This is like my 4th or 5th time now! This feels awesome :D It wouldn't be fair of me I think to post again but please head over and check out Sarah's blog Owl Eye Vintage. She's also got a cute Etsy shop too by the same name you should check out. I'm eyeing some cute things in there.... Christmas is coming! Thanks again, Sarah for nominating me :)

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!
Happy weekend, Homies.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Me, Myself, And I

Me, Myself, and I is a new monthly link up hosted by these five awesome ladies...

Danielle @ Framed Frosting

So what's the deal? Answer five random (we know I love random) questions about yourself and link up. Why? To get to know each other better, of course! Visit Breanna to learn more :)

 This months questions....

What are your top 5 favorite movies to watch during the Holidays?
1. Mickey's Christmas Carol is my favorite Christmas movie. It easily tops this list. I can't wait to sit down and watch it with my son this year!
2. Nightmare Before Christmas. Anytime I hear the soundtrack I can immediately get into the Christmas spirit.
3. All those Rankin/Bass studios Christmas specials like Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer and Santa Claus Is Coming To Town.....Talk about nostalgia.
4. The Grinch. Both the original and the Jim Carrey versions :)
5. The Santa Claus with Tim Allen. It's totally cheesy and I don't even know what it is about it. Just the first one though because all the other ones suck. I'm sorry but it's true.

It’s the month of giving thanks, what are you most thankful for?
I'm thankful for my husband who is the most patient man I know and spoils me rotten. He puts up with all my whining when I am sick and takes care of me by typing my blog posts.....kind of like he is doing right now.

If there was a quote or verse to describe your life, what would it be?
It's the same quote heading my disclaimer. It's one that has always sat well with me and it's actually very fitting. Besides, who doesn't love Alice in Wonderland?

This one has been having a profound impact on me lately too. It seems so simple yet a good reminder is always welcome.

Who in your family are you most alike?
My mother. We are exactly alike which may be why we get along so well and also why we fight so much. All kidding aside, I love my mother and think she is an amazing woman. I am honored to be her daughter and count myself lucky to have any similarity to her.

Now, I asked Jimmy this question out of curiosity and the conversation went something like this:

Me: Who in your family do you think you're most like?
James: Hmm, I don't know. Maybe I'm just like my Father...
Me: Why?
James: Well, he's too bold.
Me: Right.....
James: Or maybe I'm just like my Mother...
Me: Let me guess.
James: She's never satisfied....

and then he started wailing some Prince-like harmonies.

I fall for his shenanigans every. damn. time.

What is your favorite drink order at Starbucks?
When it's in season, I fall into the Pumpkin Spiced Latte trend. But otherwise, I love me a Toffee Nut Latte with extra whip cream.

Instagram Lovins and oh yeah, I'm not dead.

I am alive although it seriously doesn't feel like it. This has been the worst week I have had.... I won't say ever but honestly, it's pretty high up there. After posting that I was feeling much better from this devil of a UTI I've had I took a turn for the worse Wednesday night and by Thursday I was calling my doctor begging for help. After being on the antibiotics for 48 hours with no relief I was miserable.

First my doctor's office tells me Thursday that I will have to suck it up. That sometimes these things take 3-4 days to work. Then the nurse tells me that she will give a call in to the lab to see how my culture came back because maybe I need different antibiotics for whatever is ailing me. She calls me back and tells me my culture came back negative and that they want to do an ultrasound on my bladder the following day (Friday) and that I should promptly make an appointment with my gynecologist to rule out anything serious in that department. 

Oh yeah, the hypochondriac is seriously freaking out at this point!

Friday morning I call my gynecologist's office and the nurse tells me that she just went through the same thing but even though her culture was negative it still was indeed a UTI. 

I love this office. They always set my mind at ease. Picture for a moment, a pregnant hypochondriac. Yeah.... I was not a fun person. This office literally was a godsend. 

We make an appointment but within a half hour they call back and my doctor gets on the phone to tell me he really still feels it's a UTI and prescribes me a stronger antibiotic and some pain meds with instructions to give it till Monday (today) and see how I feel. 

Well, the weekend was better but still miserable. I was getting nervous because I had one pill left from my prescription and I wasn't feeling much different but then last night I seemed to take a turn for the better. This morning was still good but I could feel some lingering symptoms so I was given three more days of the antibiotic to make sure this sucker is G-O-N-E. They also confirmed that while my culture was negative for bacteria it was positive for nitrates so it IS a UTI and not one of the horrible diseases I managed to dream up the last few days.

So I am keeping my chin up. I'm feeling a little better although I am scared to say that for fear it will get worse again. *knockonwood* I told Jimmy many times that I would rather give birth to Raine 10 times than deal with this..... and Raine was a 10 lb baby. I've suffered quite a bit of physical pain in my life and this was by far the hardest to bear..... no joke. I hope I don't have to test that theory any time soon. 

Sorry if this post is sort of all over and if it's even a little too much information for some. The antibiotic I'm on sort of makes me loopy not to mention nervous so God, knows what I am even typing right now....

How about some Instagram love?

1} Day 13 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for this cranberry juice. It really helped alleviate some of the pain and I'm psyched that we finally found 100% cranberry juice. It's not easy to come by around here. 
2} He now pushes the ottoman around the room to more easily get into things. 
3} This is the face I get when I tell him to get out of the box. 
4} Day 14 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful that I didn't spend much money on my book collection at the rate my son is wearing them in. 
5}Day 12 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for hilarious things.... And cute, tiny, yet "formidable" bats. I'm thankful for bats. Yup.

.... and that's pretty much the end of #30daysofthanks because my illness screwed me all up. I tell ya though, once this clears up I know what I will be most thankful for!

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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

My Kid, The Jinx.

I like to blog everyday. It's therapeutic for me to type out these things in my head no matter how deep or trivial they may be. Not the weekends though. That's family time..... then again, everyday is family time but.... you know what I mean, right?

Some days I just can't write. Or I don't feel like it. Or I'm dying on the couch with some crazy ailment. Yesterday was one of those days. A dying-on-the-couch-with-a-crazy-ailment-type of day, I mean. Okay, maybe not a "crazy ailment" although I certainly think UTI's are pretty funking crazy. Or evil. Or both. Yup.... definitely both.

So I missed the gun on posting because I was laid up on the couch whining like a two year old while my actual two year old rubbed my head and said "Don't cry, Mommy" which really means "stop being such a little bitch and make me some pancakes" but he thinks I don't know that. Finally last night  I tapped out of the match and dragged my rear end to the E.R. because the AZO and cranberry juice weren't making the cut. The doctor took one look at my medical records and saw that I am prone to these God awful UTI's, loaded me up on meds, and sent me home in under two hours which is unheard of in our hospital.

Today I feel significantly better but a little perplexed because I have managed to stave off these damn infections since I had Raine. Coincidentally, a couple of my friends have been dealing with this the last week too (is it the water?) and I had said to Jimmy "I am so glad I haven't had to deal with a UTI in over two years" and bam! Here I am. That's what I get for opening my big mouth.....

In front of my son!

See, it's been a running joke around here that Raine is a jinx. Okay, maybe more than a joke because we sometimes literally find ourselves knocking on wood whenever we say stuff around him now because if the last two years have shown us anything it's that anytime we say something in front of him the opposite happens. Usually when it involves him anyway but sometimes with other things too.

For example, Jimmy will say "Raine had a big dinner and he's almost falling asleep standing up. He's totally going to sleep late tomorrow morning" and then Raine will be up at 3 a.m. ...... which NEVER happens but because Jimmy opened his big mouth we pay the consequences.

Or when asked by another mommy if I am seeing any signs of the terrible twos yet, I respond "No not yet. I've been super lucky. I swear I have the happiest, most well behaved child on the planet" and the whole following day he's a whiny, demanding, yelling, grumpo, mess.

Those are just some examples but I can probably lay out a million more if someone asked.... although why would anyone even ask? How many people actually talk like this about their kids in the first place? You know I am just kidding, right?

Sort of....

So maybe I have been jinxed again. After two years of UTI free heaven (when I used to get them almost monthly) it just seems a little odd.

Or maybe sitting at the computer for a full 48 hours drinking massive amounts of coffee and spraying body spray on myself rather than shower (I'm gross) just so I can pump out a new blog design is what got me here.

And by "here" I mean being loaded up on antibiotics and terrified for the moment when I have to pee again.

Yeah, maybe that was it.

But just in case, I'll be paying better attention to what I say in front of my kid.

Just in case.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Instagram Lovins

This has been one hell of a weekend, guys. To me anyway. It will probably sound boring as hell to everyone else. Just warning you. 

I spent nearly 75% of it at the computer desk tweaking a new blog design. I'm not claiming to know anything about that stuff, by the way. I'm sort of teaching myself over here but I got pretty caught up in it and basically lost the entire weekend. There it is. The boring ass truth. I admit it. And I am still at it.....this girl's tired, homies. Should be done soon. I'm kinda proud and stuff though.  

We also heard on Friday evening that our offer on the house was verbally approved by the second bank we have been waiting on. We weren't going to move forward until the approval paperwork was actually in our hands but they pretty much guaranteed it was a "go" so we have made the appointment for the inspection and have begun the mortgage process. We were pre-approved for the mortgage so we just need to obtain it. If nothing comes up and everything moves forward smoothly *fingers crossed* we should have the keys in our hands the week of Christmas!

That's a Merry Christmas, right?

Moving that week may be a bit of an obstacle but I handle it. We will see how everything pans out though. Hoping for the best. 

Also, Miss Melinda had her baby today! A son named Wyatt Steven. He's a bit early (she was only 34 weeks) so he's only weighing in at 4 lbs but he's doing awesome. Breathing on his own and everything. I'm so damn happy for her and my friend Marc :D

1} Day 5 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for pumpkin spice creamer. I don't know what I am going to do when the season is over.... there may end up being a 50 bottle stockpile in my basement.....that's all I'm going to say.
2} Day 6 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for this man right here. I'm probably thankful for him most of all. His spirit, his humor, his intellect, and his love. He's my perfect forever :)
3} Day 7 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for beautiful snow storms that make hubby come home from work early, that make my son squeal with delight while we build forts, that encourage us to cuddle up as a family on the couch. I love mother nature :)
4} Day 8 of #30daysofthanks: I'm always thankful for creative projects that keep me busy. This silhouette of Raine is probably my favorite thing I have done so far.
5} Day 9 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful for a roof over my head and possibly this new roof too!
6} Day 10 of #30daysofthanks: Thankful for yummy grinders from my favorite deli.
7} Day 11 of #30daysofthanks: I'm thankful we don't keep anything too unhealthy stocked in the cupboards now that this kid is breaking in and stealing stuff.

Okay, I'm tired. I haven't really slept much the last few days. It's most definitely nap time.... providing that Raine cooperates.

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Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday's Letters

This isn't the best picture I've taken but I love this face :)

Dear Raine,
Wednesday is the first time you said "I love you" to me. Well, maybe not exactly. You have been saying it for quite awhile now but Wednesday was the first time it was perfectly pronounced and clear for me to understand. It warmed my heart, little man. From the moment I found out we were going to have you I have been waiting to hear those words. That would probably be because mommy is a selfish narcissist. ;D As much as I know that you aren't really aware of what the words mean or how they associate to how you feel, it makes me all warm and gooey inside.

Even if you are just saying it to get more cheese.

So thanks, kid. Mommy loves you too!

Dear sleep, 
It's so amazing and awesome to have you back! This week I have had the best sleep I've had in YEARS! I wake up in the morning feel jazzed and rejuvenated. There has been a big increase in my mood and quality of life. I hope this never ends..... Please stick around forever!

Dear Font Space,
I can't get off of your site. Some people love to waste their time on Twitter or Facebook but me? I love finding awesome free fonts to play with. My computer is loaded..... My poor Mac. But I still love you :)

Dear blog design,
I'm thinking a face lift. Not a complete change just an updated one. I still love you but I get bored quick. It won't be too dramatic. I promise.... maybe.

Dear James,
I love you. You're perfect.

Dear Readers
I'm lost in code playing with my blog layout if you haven't noticed from my letters. My mind is so consumed that I won't even attempt to be clever. Plus Jimmy is in the next room singing Jon Secada really damn loud. I think he needs a night of karaoke. Speaking of karaoke......

It's not the same Looney Tunes that I grew up with but I laugh my ass off every time I see this episode. 

Ugh, now he's singing ABBA...... Bargle.... I'll talk to you guys on Monday....


Thursday, November 8, 2012

Raine Digs Fall

A few weeks back our friend Siro did a fall portrait session of Raine for us and I wanted to share them with you guys! They came out so awesome. Siro is just starting up his photography business so head on over and check him out on his facebook page: Siro Soliani Photographer. I really love the way they came out and seriously, isn't my kid all sorts of cute? :D

Happy Thursday!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Conversations With The Cuddler

{Conversations with The Cuddler posts are excerpts of conversations with my husband, James. It's a peek at the hilarious, sometimes bazaar, always nonsensical topics that come up around here. In short, my husband just says the darndest things.} 

This isn't even really a conversation.... well, unless you consider mumbling to yourself as conversation with yourself. In that case then it is a Conversation With The Cuddler......with.....himself.


Jimmy is filling out a questionnaire for God knows what purpose and one of the questions is "What is your favorite past time?" and I hear him mumble under his breath:

"the late 1700's, of course..."

He's sick, guys. Totally sick. 

As evidenced by that thermometer in his mouth.... a ducky thermometer too. 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I'M a noreply-comment Blogger?!

I always get so disappointed when I go to reply to a comment someone has left me via email only to find the person is a "noreply-comment" blogger. Super disappointed. Like sad even because I am one lonely stay-at-home mom, guys. I'm desperate for adult interaction and I'm not gonna lie, I totally need you for that! My plans are thwarted though when I can't bug the heck out of you reply to you via email *evilscowl* *poutpout* and replying directly in the comments usually goes unnoticed it seems because Blogger likes to be mean and not notify you that I replied. Why? Because Blogger is a jerk, that's why!

So, I just about coughed up the amazing dinner Jimmy had made us when a bloggy friend informed me that I, myself, was a "noreply-comment" blogger. What the what?

That's scandalous.

How in the world was I a "noreply-comment" blogger?!! This is freaking preposterous. I had been receiving emails back from some of my comments.... okay, maybe responses had dropped a tad but c'mon! People are busy. I don't expect fellow bloggers to answer all of my damn comments, for pete's sake. But really, comment feedback had dropped significantly and I was also beginning to notice that many other bloggers were being added to my "noreply-comment" blogger hit list. I just said to myself "I love these guys... but why are they being so mean??!!"

First I hopped on Blogger to make sure my email was entered and then I went to see if the "show email" option was on and A-HA! I realized I had switched over to using my Google+ account with Blogger. So I went on the Google search hunt to see if that was why I was suddenly a "noreply-comment" blogger and sure enough, it was. And apparently there is no way to fix it either so I had to switch BACK to the Blogger profile because dang, guys. I want to conversate!

SO, are you a "noreply-comment" blogger? Because if you are it may make your blogging experience kind of crappy. Some people have their reasons to hide their email and that's totally cool but most people don't even realize they have or may not even know what I am talking about. Basically, it means no one can reply to you through email because your email is essentially private. And chances are that if you have attached your Google+ account to your Blogger account that you are a "noreply-comment" blogger by default.

Guess what? I'm totally going to show you how to fix this shiz!

I know, awesome pretty much seeps out of my pores :)

Here we go:

Click on the gear thingy in the upper right hand corner of your Blogger home page. A drop down menu will appear. Then click on "Revert to Blogger profile".

 This page will then pop up basically warning you what you lose stuff by switching back. Ignore them and click "Switch to a limited Blogger profile".

Then pick whatever display name you would like and click "Continue to Blogger".

And bam! You're done! Okay, maybe not quite...... 

If it's been awhile since you used a Blogger profile or you've never had a Blogger profile and went straight to Google+ or you've never used Google+ but still find you're a "noreply-comment" blogger anyway here's what you do next:

 Click the little arrow in the upper right hand corner of your Blogger homepage.

 This box will drop down. Click on "Blogger Profile".

 Then click "Edit Profile" in the upper right hand corner of the page.

Make sure that your "Show my email address" box is checked and that your email is provided. Then just save it. 

NOW you're done!

If you want to check to see if you even are "noreply-comment" blogger you can either check your blogger profile as shown in the last picture or you can comment on your own blog, go to your comment in your email account and try to reply to it. If the recipient email says "noreply-comment" blogger.... well, then, you have your answer ;) But the first option is really the best one and if you find that you can't even check your blogger profile to begin with then you must have your Google+ profile attached and I can pretty much guarantee that you are indeed a "noreply-comment" blogger, Home Slice. 

Hope that helps, guys. It sucks that we can't enjoy the whole Google+ integration and all (for now anyway) but I'd personally rather be more easy to talk to rather than play with Google. I'm not even sure I like Google+ to begin with...

By the way, did anyone happen to count how many times I said (wrote) "noreply-comment" blogger?

Monday, November 5, 2012

Instagram Lovins

It's been a week of trying to figure out new routines and adhering to new schedules. I'm back to working out.... and oh, how good it feels! I took some of your suggestions and started stretching and also building my core to help support my back/spine so it doesn't stinkin hurt anymore and you know what? It seems to be helping. The next week will give me a stronger verdict but so far I'm feeling great and glad to be back on track. 

Raine's schedule, on the other hand, is all sorts of messed up from that whole daylight savings time crap. WHY??!! Ugh, poor kid. He's an hour off with everything. Today he woke up an hour early and was so tired by lunch time that he insisted on skipping lunch all together and taking his nap instead. He looked miserable. Poor thing. So I have his lunch prepped and ready for him when he wakes up. I'm hoping it equals out in a few days because this timing is for the birds.

And while we are on the subject, I am trying to implement more of a schedule for blogging and other hobby type purposes.... like designing blog and store layouts, for instance. I have a tendency to get caught up in things and I feel like I need to be more intentional with my time with my kid and that boob I call a husband...... that was a joke, obviously.....

Or was it? 

I get all these crazy ideas in my head and the next thing I know it's 3 a.m. and I have to wake up in 3 hours. Thankfully Raine is in bed and I haven't missed any time with him but it's no good when mom is burnt out and useless. I like this idea though. Now I have a set time to write or play with my layout and more recently, help other people with theirs. 

Can you tell I do way better with structure? I am spontaneous too but my day to day just functions so much better when I am perfectly scheduled. My poor kid! Then again, he seems to enjoy it just as much. He knows when lunch and nap time is. He knows when it's time to learn, read, color, and when daddy comes home. He seems like a much happier person this way as well. 

It's like a freaken epiphany, I tell ya.

On to more important things...

1 & 2} I love seeing this face across from me at the breakfast table. Such a big boy sitting in the grown up chair without even a booster. More importantly, thank god for little ikea tables that make it possible for all of us to fit.... height wise anyway.
3} I'm participating in a #30daysofthanks challenge on instagram. I'm not sure who started it but I saw that Kristine over at The Foley Fam-Unedited was doing it and I had to join in the fun! God knows I have plenty to be thankful for and I am always glad for a reminder of that. This is Day 1: I am always thankful for a glass of wine after a long day.
4} Day 2 of #30daysofthanks: I know two toddlers right now Raine's age that have been diagnosed with brain tumors. One of them who has actually relapsed after having one removed last year. These precious girls are top priority on my prayer list (bet you didn't know I did that, huh?) and it's reminded me to be thankful of this healthy, happy, little boy that I have here.
5 & 6} Day 3 of #30daysofthanks: I am so stoked that this kid LOVES to read.... yes, even when I have read him the same story 27 times in one day. It's pretty damn awesome to have someone to share my reading obsession with.
7 & 8} Day 4 of #30daysofthanks: Thankful for these boys and that they are all mine. No others could ever compare.
9} Raine has already started doing  chores.... you think I am kidding or exaggerating, don't you? It seems he's developed a case of mommy's OCD because he sort of just started doing it on his own and with a little encouragement he has blossomed. He puts his toys away before he takes out a new one, he helps daddy feed the pets, he puts his dishes in the sink when he's done eating and here he is helping us put the groceries away. We let him do the toilet paper and paper towels cause he knows where those go ;)

Do you guys post instagram posts? I'd love to see them. I'm obsessed. I mean, haven't you realized? So leave me a link in the comments if you do so I can stalk the hell out of you check them out :D

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Friday, November 2, 2012

Friday's Letters

Dear Raine,
Saying "please" doesn't automatically mean you will receive what you're asking for.... Like mommy's glass of wine for instance. You have a lot to learn, kiddo.

Dear motivation,
Come back! We were kicking some serious ass there for awhile? Now I'm a lazy lump. Seems that way anyway. Get it together, homie.

Dear James,
Thank you for running out late at night to get me noms when I'm not feeling good. My mood thanks you.... Not so much my ass though. But you like big booty bitches, don't you?

Dear new house,
We just signed a one month extension on our contract.... You DO know that patience isn't one of my virtues, correct? Thanks for the lesson.

Dear head,
Why all the headaches, hmm? Too many thoughts and ideas going on in there or something? Relax.

Dear Christmas,
Holy crap, am I psyched for you! Jimmy isn't having any of this early decorating though.... But Black Friday it's me and you baby. The tree is going up and the music is getting pumped 24/7 till the day after Christmas.....

Oh. My. Glob..... I'm a flippin psycho.

Dear weekend,
Not much to do..... Yes!

Happy Friday, homies. :)


Thursday, November 1, 2012

10 Steps To Happiness

It seems that lately every person in my life is miserable. No seriously, everyone. is. unhappy. Even the happiest person I have ever met is unhappy with life right now. Maybe it's the upcoming holidays? Could be the water around here or it could be that people have lost the ability to see what is right in front of their faces. 

I'm sort of an expert on misery. Self professed of course so maybe that takes away my credibility but you don't spend 27 years of your life in total fucking misery and not become an expert on the subject, am I right? In those 27 years I tried every damn thing in the book (what is this "book", anyway?) to find happiness. Therapy, pills, religion, money, material possession, drugs, alcohol, etc. etc. freaking etc.... you get my point. I tried it all. I read books and I did what just about anyone suggested. I was on a desperate hunt for happiness and I never found it in all those silly ways that some people insisted would work. That stuff may work for some people but they did not work for me. Not in the long run. 

When I decided to make a real attempt at a relationship with Jimmy and we found out we were expecting Raine I knew that things needed to change. Jimmy didn't want to be married to me the way I was. How could he? I was already married.... to misery. 

Well, this lady wanted a divorce! 

And I refused to be attached to misery when Raine came. I was not going to be that sad mom lost in her pain. No freaking way. 

So I looked a hell of a lot deeper than I ever had and I realized that only I can control my life. The only person who can dictate my life and my decisions is me. So, with these realizations I could only logically theorize that the source of my misery.....

Drum roll please....

Was me! 

It wasn't anyone else's fault, this sadness. I could blame my father's death or the rape I endured. I could blame the fact that I was poor as hell or riddled with mental illness. I had every reason in the world to be unhappy but there was only one way to change it and it all had to start in me because guess what? I was holding myself back and I wasn't letting things go. I was choosing to let things bother me or hurt me. I was making myself sad and only I could change that. I can control whether I am happy or not. 

End. of. story. 

So I made some changes and I have been truly happy ever since. Three years and counting..... after 27 years of pain and suffering I can finally say I know what it is to be happy. So I give you: 

..... and you're not going to like it. This isn't your typical lovey dovey, frou frou guide to happiness. You will have to face some harsh realities about yourself. It's time to look inside of you and quit pinning the blame on others or situations you may find yourself in.  

And FYI, I am not setting out to offend anyone. Think of this as tough love, people. 

Are you ready? Here we go:

1} Think Positive
Seems pretty obvious right? But it's easier said then done. You need to start viewing the glass as half full rather than thinking that freaking thing is empty all the damn time. So you got into a little fender bender on the way to work and the repairs are going to cost you..... AT LEAST YOU AREN'T DEAD! C'mon people, seriously! You need to change your perspective on things and QUIT YOUR BITCHING!! If you keep insisting on complaining then your view point can never change. Just stop whining and look at yourself. Before you open your mouth (or type that stinkin facebook status) take a look at the situation and find the positive. It's there, I promise. It's always there. 

2} Stop Caring What Others Think
OOOhhhh boy. There's another one that is way easier said then done. But it's essential. Here's a cold hard fact: People are going to judge each other. It's in our nature. And the people who try and say we shouldn't judge are usually the worst freaking offenders. We all do it some way, some how. But you need to stop putting so much stock in what others think of you. Let them judge. It only reflects their character and should hold no bearing on what you think of yourself. So you have a crush on a guy but all your girlfriends think he's fat...... fuck them. It's YOUR life. You're gay and afraid that coming out is going to upset everyone you know? Do you really want to spend the rest of your life in that closet? Do what you want and stop looking to others to justify who YOU are. Seriously, cut it out. Because no one really has it all together anyway. 

3} Stop Caring What Others Do
That's right. The same way that you have to quit caring what others think of you, you also have to turn that shit around and stop caring what others are doing. You need to STOP JUDGING! Like I said in step 2, we all do it and there really isn't anyway to stop those thoughts from sneaking in your head but you can choose to let them go as fast as they come in. Learn to mind your own damn business. No use getting yourself all worked up because so and so decided to bottle feed after you told her all the benefits of breastfeeding. Who the hell cares?! You think that chick on Facebook is a slut? Is she bothering you or personally offending you? Jeez, move on already. Don't allow yourself to become fixated on these things and if you don't like someone or you can't get along it's a simple solution... stop socializing with them

I recently had to do this. I couldn't get along with someone in my life but yet I remained friends with them. I kept trying to make our relationship work but it just wasn't going to happen. I had to accept that we just didn't mesh well and that it wasn't her fault nor was it mine. So rather than fight bitterly all the time (and silently judge the heck out of each other) I ended the friendship and it was like a dark cloud had been lifted in my life. Life has been much easier and I hear from mutual friends that she's a lot happier too. It's a win/win and it was better than leaving the relationship with harsh feelings.

If you focus all your attention on disliking people what's that say about you? And how will you ever be happy with all that negativity floating in your head, hmm? Just walk away. 

Which leads me to:

4} Figure Out What's Important To You 
.... and kick the rest to the curb. If it's causing unhappiness in your life then it needs to either be fixed or it has to go. Decide who and what is important to you and then discard the riff raff. Clutter never made anyone happy and emotional clutter won't either.  

5} Quit Being Lazy
Don't sit there and whine that things aren't going your way. Get off your ass and CHANGE IT! Sometimes the change sucks at first but sitting around doing nothing never helped anyone! I had a job once that I despised. I was so damn miserable at this place but I stuck it out because I "couldn't" find another job or the ones I was offered didn't pay enough blah blah blah. The thing is, I wasn't trying hard enough. I was lazy in my misery. After six years my misery basically got me fired and guess what? I was ridiculously happy. Sure, I was broke and unsure how I was going to make ends meet but I was so relieved to be out of that place. In the end it made me push harder to find a job and it worked out. If you hate your job then leave. If you're unhappy in your relationship then move on. I'm not saying it won't be hard to make that change but it sure as hell beats crying all the damn time. 

6} Realize It's Okay To Be Sad Sometimes
It's not always going to be sunshine and puppy farts all the damn time. There is going to be sadness, anger, and other various painful emotions in life and that's okay. It's more than okay, it's life! It's healthy even. You can't experience true happiness if you don't know it's opposite.....sadness. All emotions tie into each other and you really can't have one without the other. You just have to learn not to get stuck or dwell in just one of them. How can you know what it's like to be happy if you've never been sad? Or vice versa. I had to learn that a bad day didn't equal a bad life. I still suffer bouts of depression but it doesn't mean that I am unhappy. Feel it but move on from it. 

7} Relax
People tend to live life constantly waiting for the next moment to arrive. You need to learn to look around you and live in the moment that you're in...... even if that moment sucks. Our lives are a series of moments that each mold us and make us who we are. You may not like the season that you're in but you need to live in it. Looking forward constantly isn't going to get you to the next moment faster, my friend. Not to mention, I bet 9 times out of 10 if you took a look around you you'd find something worth cherishing. 

Having Raine taught me this in a big way. I learned to appreciate the soft grass on the way to the car or to put down the laundry basket when my kid wants a hug. He taught me to slow the hell down. We want to move into our new house so bad but if I spent all my time focusing on that part of our future then I'd miss this part of Raine growing up. 

Relax. Live in the moment. Even if that moment is kicking your ass. 

8} Be Selfish
That's right. None of this "love each other and be kind" crap out of my mouth. Sure, those things should be a given anyway but sometimes we have to say no and think of ourselves. Some of us, the compassionate ones anyway, only consider how others feel or are afraid of hurting anyone when we make decisions in our lives. That's not always the best course of action though. Example: Staying in a relationship with someone to spare their feelings isn't doing you or that person any bit of good. When it comes to your life you need to be number one! In putting yourself first you will actually do right by others too. The people who truly love you won't be offended by it either. If you find that you're unhappy ask yourself if it's because you're trying to make someone else happy. Now decide if it's worth it. If it is then welcome to unhappiness.... here's your membership card. 

9} Take Responsibility
Don't pin the way you feel on someone else or on a particular situation. It's no one else's job to make or keep you happy. As I've said previously, it's up to you to change your life and if you can't do that then it's you who is making you a miserable individual. Don't start slinging blame all over the place because that's one sure fire way of ended up bitter and alone. 

10} Quit Making Excuses
This goes right along with being lazy. You won't get anywhere if you make excuses all the time as to why you can't change your life. You need to realize that all your "so-called" reasons why you can't change your situation are nothing more than excuses to not do so. If you want to be happy then you need to stop finding reasons to stay miserable!

Now that you have read through these steps they probably seem pretty obvious to you. This post may even sound a little sarcastic and in a way I sort of am being smart ass but it's a serious sarcasm. These things may be obvious to me now but they weren't so much back then. So if you're suffering, this is my way of lovingly knocking you upside your head..... I wish someone would have done it for me!

Oh, and here's a bonus step for you, sometimes sadness and unhappiness is a much deeper problem. Sometimes we need a little bit more help than this. Sometimes we even need medication. News Flash: I'm one of those people. Don't ever be afraid to seek help.

....and for God's sake, if prescribed, take your damn meds.